last night, i witness a fight.

well, kind of.

okay, it was more of the aftermath of a fight that broke out in my carriage when i was taking the train home from a night out with some mates. i could have witness the fight if i hadn't been so oblivious to everything with my headphones in. sure i did hear a lot of noise, but when i finally turned around (it all happened behind me) i saw three men pinning a (drunk) guy onto a wall and telling him to stop swearing. he had a bloody nose.

apparently this drunk guy was swearing too much using the f & c words and some men were standing by the honour of the women on the train and asked him politely to stop. when he didn't, everything eventually got violent as the drunk guy tried to take a swing (but missed, obviously) at one of the other men and he ended up with a bloody nose.

part of me was kind of scared because it all happened barely five metres away from me but it wasn't for long because three security people turned up. hats of the the two men who broke the fight up first and thankfully, did not get hurt in the process.

deathbed

what have i done?

//

Jesus please forgive me of my crimes
sanctify this withered heart of mine
stay with me until my life is through
and on that day, please take me home with you

- relient k

today...

... a nine/ten yearold boy tried to pick me up for his nine/ten yearold friend and marry me off. and he used lewd words to achieve his aim. his friend was turning bright red with embarrassment and was trying to turn away. i was speechless. a passenger sitting on the other side of the train was trying hard not to burst out laugh. loudly. only on a train in the western suburbs.

... i found out that one of my family friends has stage 2 ovarian cancer. she's living in thailand at the moment and will probably come back for treatment. i don't know her very well, but she made sure i was well taken care of when i was travelling alone in bangkok. please pray.

celebrity blogger

"knowing a blogger in real life (you for example) is like knowing a celebrity" - k

really? wow. so i'm a celebrity to the six people that read this (there are only six regular people who leave comments. the others are all stalkers).

thanks for making me a star.

random thoughts

//i am envious of some people's lives but it is so much more than what they put on their blogs//i would like to go out with a twin//i just realised that it has been below 10 degrees for the past week and i've been wearing the same amount of clothes i wore last winter. no wonder it's so cold//i would like three of my future children to be boys. one. after. the. other//i've never really truly realised how far i've fallen until i read entries by a man with a fiery passion for the things of God and how he's working in his life//today, i found myself eating the button of my jacket after i woke up from a nap on the train. twice//singing moderately loudly at the busstop at 6am is kind of fun//i should really start learning to propel myself on my skateboard instead of standing on it like a statue carved out of ice during an earthquake//i can't believe i survived on four hours of sleep last thursdayfriday//God is good.

sex

she couldn't have been more than thirteen. fourteen at the most. her hair was tied back and braided with multicoloured hair ties. she wore an army print puffed jacket with faux fur lining its hood. her threequarter jeans sat low on her hips, only held up by a tan coloured belt with metal holes. worn pink shoes adorned her feet. her laces were dirty and untied.

there was an air of haughtiness around her. but her young face betrayed far more than her age. worrisome eyes hid behind a forced smile. she slouched like an eightyyearold with back deformities.

amongst talk of teenage pregnancies, her unseen friend asked, "so, what if you choose not to have any sex?"

to which she replied (after a long pause), "then i wouldn't have any friends".

//

how sad it is to hear things like this coming out of girls far from adulthood. society deems this generation to be mature than the last, able to cope with what life brings at an earlier age. but who are they kidding? who's on the loosing end here?

what will she teach her daughters when she does has them?

choose

let all of my dreams be found in you
let all of my longings be filled by you

- gravitate

girl

she stared
with eyes unwavering
her pupils widened and narrowed
with alternating streams of sunlight and shadows

what she saw, i can only wonder
oh, the infinite possibilities
what held her attention
of the object in question?

if only she knew what lies ahead
if only she knew how
she would be accosted
with secrets not worth keeping

16.06.07

shrek the third

sometimes, the first is always the best. this movie is just passable for a medium of entertainment. it was unusually short and predictable. don't get me wrong, i did like it. kind of. it was funny enough, but i doubt the younger kids will understand most of the puns and references to pop culture.

landslide of ogre babies, merlin with no pants, superhero/sidekick princesses...

what more can i say?

there is no mathematics to love and lost

i have waited for this day for such a long time, and it finally arrived. anberlin came into town and brought copeland with them.

the night opened up with angela's dish. i distinctively heard someone in the crowd hopeful that they will start off slow and ease into it but no. the explosion of noise nearly burst my eardrums. that was also partly because the speakers were right on top of me. they were alright for a local band.

copeland then opened with a soft piece which was a nice change. frontman aaron marsh had a unique way of expressing himself when playing the keys. to be honest, i enjoyed the songs where he played keys to more than the others. towards the end of their set, some people began chanting for anberlin to come on. but it would have been nice if they'd play a few more songs off their new album.

the atmosphere radically changed as anberlin stepped onto the stage. electrified energy burst out of the speakers as the band started their first song. as usual, i was bracing myself against the barrier as the crowd surged forward. just like them i sang along to every single song. anberlin played their first acoustic set in melbourne (second if you count the underage gig that afternoon) and it was great. i hung out for 'a whisper and a clamour' and i got it! just as quickly as they came on, the got off and the night was over.

all the band members did stay after the show to chat but i wish i had enough time to ask him my questions. there are things that intrigued me about him and i would have liked to find out where he was coming from. well, there's always email. and the next time they come. i was surprised to see nick from antiskeptic there as well so i said hi.

for more photos of the night, go here.