wise words of cushion

mysterious men = high risk

to be at low risk, go for someone you know.

if all else fails, surrender to a life of celibacy.

echoing in the distance:

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

back to uni today.

i'm back to walking up the unending escalators in melbourne central. my exercise, five times a week for these next two weeks. my knees felt a bit funny...like they haven't been oild for a while. and avioding taking the train between 2.30 and 3.30pm. that's when all the schoolkids come on and i won't be able to get any sleep or listen to my cds.

it's weird not to be in my normal clinic uniform during the week. at least it's three weeks of no prioritising patients, figuring out what problems we have to treat or trying to change the way i walk so my feet wouldn't ache so much.

i'm so over assignments...and group work. did you know there's at tleast one other person in a group that is a slacker (unless you make up a group with people you know ill do work)? that so happens to be the only boy in my group. most of the time, i have to stop short of throttling him.

need to start on the essay. that's due on monday that i haven't started. at least it's only 1000 words.

easypeasy.

i had a fine weekend to take my mind off the results for the neuro clinic. thanks to kaiwin, mikey and bibi for their hilarious antics and strategies to kill zombies. i never knew that you could starve a zombie and it will just shut down. makes an interesting dinner conversation, tho.

war of the worlds was not bad. if we decided to watch house of wax, i would have closed my eyes and cried, not to mention screaming for an unnaturally long time...actually, i don't scream. i whimper. i don't think i've ever screamed in my entire life. i was bitting my nails when they were running and hiding and running and being eaten...ewww!!

going to bed exhausted gives a good sleep.

i'm exhausted.

going to bed now.

currently chucking a fit

ugh! i despise clinics. there's no standard way to makr students and everything is so subjective. how can the mar how well you learn??? isn't it suppost to be a learning experience?? i guess exams & stuff test how well you learn but what is the continuous clinical assessment?? it's more like it'sthelastweekwe'dbettergivethestudentssomemarks thing. what would they do if a student is slow in learning? give them lower marks. if there's not enough opportunity to display a certain skill? hmm...0/5 = needs maximum assistance. didn't see them displaying a certain skill...definately the lowest mark possible. i really feel like chucking a fit or burn a building that costs a few billion dollars to build (i'm not a pyro...really).

because of all these, i'm trying to compose a speech on the unfairness of my clinical marking system, probably oblivious to the fact that they would have spent months...even years trying to perfect the marking system. but nothing can be perfect, can they?

life is never perfect.

comments:

kaiwin90 on 22 august 2005 at 03.29
Keeping up with where you're at through your blog. I like how you write!
-Kaiwin

hosanna

let the weak say i am strong
let the poor say i am rich
let the blind say i can see
it's what the Lord has done in me

finally! exams are finished! for this block anyway. it was only by the grace of God that i passed my clinical exam. i thought i would fail! i forgot so many things. and i think i got UNSATISFACTORY for safety...which is a pretty big thing considering patients can fall and break something...or DIE!!!

i had a really good conversation with a good friend of mine about bgr. i think it's the uncertainty of who we will end up with that gets to me. he was just worried that she'll lose interest in him. conclusion was guys like girls with a smile (smile = genuine happiness/positivenes) and girls like guys with a plan. haha. pretty general but in a way true.

everywhere i look, there are people being affectionate, especially to one of the opposite sex (sometimes mum and infant..like the two i saw on the tram. their interaction made me smile but what an ugly baby!). there's this yearning in me to want someone i can care and be worried about (not in the jealous way) but there's also the part of me that enjoys being free to do anything i want and not be tied down to a relationship. btw, being tied down is not that bad. there are probably perks of which i don't know of due to the fact that i've never been in a relationship.

looking forward to going back to uni next week. at least there's snoring in lectures that are really important and time to be brain-dead for most of the day. zombies, we all are.

hmm...

dan commented that he thought this guy like me. male intuition, he said. this coming from someone that lacks the experience in this particular area.

how do you tell the other person you like him without him knowing?

and how can you tell if he likes you?

i missed playing at gravitate. not that i haven't played in a long time but i think that i've been doing it for so long that missing a week...you get what i mean, not that i don't enjoy playing in the focus band ...just different people, different feel, i guess.

mum and i have been talking quite a bit about this year & where i'm heading. i'm still struggling with studies and doing my quiet time. mum thinks that this is the year where i'm being challenged not only academically but spiritually as well. i think i agree. most of the time, i find it so difficult to read the bible, or pray for that matter.

last month, surge had a series with mark sayers. i went to the one about why people are more prone to leaving the faith at certain ages. we live in an agnostic society where every need is provided for and no room for God. everything is about pleasing the self now and turnover is high. this liquidity means no commitments to things of the long term. those who step away are usually at crossroads, like transitions between highschool & uni, uni & work, work & retirement, etc.

i think i'm at a crossroad in my life at the moment. i'm experiencing the working life (although i'm still learning & have a year to go) and managing my time between study and non-study activities are tough. i've never been great at managing my own time but i'm starting to learn.

i think.

don't put the drums too close...my ears hurt

i think i was blinking. angela called me a serial blinker. haha. she's taken too many photos of me that end up with me with my eyes half closed.

i like this photo of me. missions conference was great in terms of the focus band growing closer & stepping out in faith. it was the first time we've played in front of the entire church together. most of us play in other services with other bands. the fact that us growing in unity & in our skills show that God had a hand in this. each of us were hand picked to be in this team, to encourage each other.

i don't think i want to do the whole weekend of music with assessments and exams to worry about but i think i will have to do that again...with collision coming up.

soft tissue damage, she said

i fell down the stairs of thursday. about ten steps in total. it was a good thing i wasn't a seventy yearold or my left neck of femur would have been fractured. haha. that's what one of the gr two physios said to me. riiight. it hurts tho. i though there would be a bruise forming on the side of my bottom but it just hurts. plus, there's a lump on my foot. i think the heel of my boot contacted with it. no bruising there either but lots of swelling tho.

one more week of clinics!!

illegal recipient of love

typical paparazzi pose. the red thing is a fluffy heart shaped pillow tied with helium balloons but i think the attempt to float it towards the subject failed so it was just given to him. by whom? only he knows. he is not divulging any information at the moment. we'll be back shortly.

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anGe on 02 september 2005 at 14.54
bet ya that's Aaron! He's soooooooooo photogenic *cough* haha

why is it everytime i'm so busy with other stuff when exams draw near? sigh. i think i need more hours in a day, more days in a week and more weeks in a year to fit all the things i want to do in...including bumming around at home doing nothing.

maybe one day can be doing that, five days of school/studies, three days for church, two for work, and last but not least, another one to annoy the beans out of my brother.

i'm ranting coz i'm bored and stressed with clinics. i can't wait for this to be over.

sigh.