paper cuts

rain crashed down
droplets fall from trees above
like mudslides we skim away
our hands lose their grip in the smoothness of time

what happened on the way?
this journey we started together
all the times we embraced in the cold
all the times we pulled each other to our feet
all the times...

like paper cuts to my soul
pinned in place by jagged and rusty nails
rain and blood mingles
rain and blood soaks into the ground

i know you love me
the best is yet to come
but why do i feel like this?
why do i still have paper cuts on my soul?

09.10.05

night at al's

nate, you missed out on quite a bit. we went through al's wardrobe and tried on a few things. his room is so retro! it's like living my childhood all over again (i'm not THAT old...al's older. but i had lots of old things to play with from my aunts and uncles; handmedowns, you know).








here, al's collection of sunnies from the 60s and hats were put to the blog squad test.

the sunnies reminds me of my first pair of glasses..without the dark tint.

how do you describe the taste of salt?

really. how do you describe it?

as one person puts it : 'when it is clean, it's white and if it's fresh you can smell it. on your tongue it's bitting and puckery. in your eye or on broken skin, it stings. on some foods, it adds to a billion percent of taste. on others, it makes it enhances its sweetness.'

but how do you really describe it? especially to a person without taste buds?

how do you explain light to a person who cannot see?

how do you depict touch to a person who cannot feel?

how do you detail the aroma of roses to a person who cannot smell?

hard isn't it? one can't live the experience through words. there are not enough words in the dictionary to describe them and too many meanings for one word. experience is essential.

in the same way, you can't describe an experience with God. you have to experience Him, feel His touch, hear His voice in order to know exactly what it feels like to be in His presence. plus, it's different for everyone; just like i don't like strawberry-flavoured processed food.

all of my days

and my eyes, they look unto You always

and i am captured by Your majesty

my uncle had his 50th birthday party last night.

most entertaining to say the least...drunken men serenading him, people trying to roast him but end up roasting themselves and the focus of his male pattern baldness by his beloved sons who probably inherited it.

ended up catching up with ray and ling throughout the night which was good considering we haven't really updated each other on our lives. i still have yet to have a proper conversation with his crazy girlfriend considering i haven't had time to talk to her.

spot the err

today i had milk flavoured coffee.

this is what i want for my birthday

KORG triton le88 weighted keys (and an amp so i can hear what i'm playing)

88 weighted keys.

a myriad of sounds.

yes, it's exactly the one used in church.

like freedom in spring

the blog squad (aka blog buddies aka blog chums aka whatevernamechangeyouguyscomeupwith) met up without me last night. there's this empty and hollow feeling left inside of me (this is around the time we usually meet up). sigh.

haha. i'm kidding. no hard feelings guys. but i do miss meeting up and listening to mikey make a fool out of himself around us. but that's our mikey. he semi-harrassed me over who i 'gave up on'. if only he knew, eh ange?

it is good that i'm not thinking of him twentyfourseven. but i love the feeling of not being able to sleep at night because of him (i really can't afford sleepless nights). i love how he makes me smile even when he's not around. i love how he brightens up my day without even trying. i still really like him and it's really hard for me to give it all up to God and not take matters into my own hands. after all, it's all in His timing.

i'm trying to get to know him more before i commit to anything. i think even if he did ask me out now, i'll try to take it slow, get to know him more before committing to anything. but these are just words, aren't they? who knows what i'll do if he ACTUALLY asked me out. i pray that God would give me to strength and courage to exercise my self control and avoid temptation.

working so far...

this is the time when...

...i dyed my hair & didn't want it to leave stains on anything my head brushes up against so i put a plastic bag over my head. cut me some slack. i couldn't find a spare shower cap.

food is so overrated.

as most of you know, i'm not much of a food person, but i do enjoy the occasional exotically explosion to my taste buds. for some reason i have the urge to munch pretty much all the time..well, when i'm not busy doing anything. if i'm reading, i'd like a munch. if i'm at the computer, i'd like a munch. i think it's the aesthetics of having something in your mouth, crunching between your teeth.

or maybe it's just me.

for all the posts before this point

i have put them in with respective dates and comments because the site i was on before is changing servers and most of my first few years on the blogging scene will be lost. happy reading!

jumpstart organisation was nearly a total let down. last year was better in terms of everything flowing, but this year's content while low on quantity, was high in quality once all the technical difficulties were resolved.

the drama was inspirational.

mass mayhem vs. ko was entertaining.

inAmen, was as usual, great, but the stage looked empty without the rest of the band.

k.a.t.e. went out with a big bang, with a snapshot of the eighties, a scream (umm..more than A scream and not just from the girls) from the 90s and a final farewell with the debut of the tigermusic mascot with his awesome xylophone. for those who want the video of their backstreetboys-inspired performance, please send an email to lossenovien AT gmail DOT com.

comments:

anGie pities Mikey on 04 october 2005 at 23.16
Yeah KATE was awesome haha. We've got some pretty cool guys at our church. They just throw the 'geeky christian' stereotype out the window :o)

Freakspace on 05 october 2005 at 09.01
So she even comes up as Angies Pities Mikey here? Heh...my fame preceeds me! Rahaha! I liked Jumpstart, your people did really well!