is this what regret feels like?
this gut wrenching feeling of a need to turn back time to undo what i've just done.
it's just numb. muted versions of what they're supposed to be.
the most intense of them all? anger.
//
finding him again is kind of exciting. being reminded of his goodness, grace and mercy, and best of all love in the midst of thoughts of shame, rejection and fear.
all i need is you.
//
Thursday, January 10, 2008
Wednesday, January 02, 2008
random nye
the ideal place to celebrate the new year in the heat is to go to a back beach somewhere in rye with a few crazy friends that have the tendency to do the most crazy things. the place were were at was called london bridge.
after shopping for food which chucky so graciously took charge (with delegation, of course), we
proceeded to carry all the stuff to the isolated far end of the beach. the water was cool and it was a relief from the scorching heat. I was intrigued with the lilo, wondering what the boys were going to do with it. Sure enough, they boogie boarded on it. with some getting injured on the sharp, sharp rocks.
as the night drew near and the sun was setting, i climbed up the cliff (london bridge, i assume) and the view was amazing. the tide was low so the rocks underneath was visible. huge waves crashed on them, throwing kelp and other sea plants around. and our little campsite looked so tiny.
when the dark set in, we roamed the blow holes and rock platform for rock pools and crabs. it
was fun with the lack of torches amongst the lot of us. we (jamin) caught a crab the size of his hand (a bit big) but at julie's insistence, put it back into its rock pool. on the platform, she cringed as we stepped on some vegetation but surrendered to the fact that it was quite comfortable and was preferable to stepping on baby muscles or sharp rocks.
just as we finished our countdown for the new year, fireworks erupted at a nearby town, thus completing our night. the climb back up the steep ramp was no fun but we eventually got to the cars and headed home.
where my sweet bed was.
after shopping for food which chucky so graciously took charge (with delegation, of course), we
proceeded to carry all the stuff to the isolated far end of the beach. the water was cool and it was a relief from the scorching heat. I was intrigued with the lilo, wondering what the boys were going to do with it. Sure enough, they boogie boarded on it. with some getting injured on the sharp, sharp rocks.
as the night drew near and the sun was setting, i climbed up the cliff (london bridge, i assume) and the view was amazing. the tide was low so the rocks underneath was visible. huge waves crashed on them, throwing kelp and other sea plants around. and our little campsite looked so tiny.when the dark set in, we roamed the blow holes and rock platform for rock pools and crabs. it
was fun with the lack of torches amongst the lot of us. we (jamin) caught a crab the size of his hand (a bit big) but at julie's insistence, put it back into its rock pool. on the platform, she cringed as we stepped on some vegetation but surrendered to the fact that it was quite comfortable and was preferable to stepping on baby muscles or sharp rocks.just as we finished our countdown for the new year, fireworks erupted at a nearby town, thus completing our night. the climb back up the steep ramp was no fun but we eventually got to the cars and headed home.
where my sweet bed was.
Sunday, December 09, 2007
Monday, December 03, 2007
i hope you're happy, having this new found toy. you thought no one wanted it back, didn't you?
well, i wanted it back. you don't know how much an inanimate object can be the cause of so much grief.
i know it is wrong. and i know i shouldn't do it.
i hope the same thing happens to you and your inanimate objects causes you LOTS more grief that it did me.
well, i wanted it back. you don't know how much an inanimate object can be the cause of so much grief.
i know it is wrong. and i know i shouldn't do it.
i hope the same thing happens to you and your inanimate objects causes you LOTS more grief that it did me.
Sunday, November 25, 2007
health kick 101
on the 20th of november, six of us decided to start our health kick, which involves no junk food for a month.
today is day six.
so far, i've been tempted with lollies, pizza, chocolate, my own birthday cake (which by the way, i haven't and ANY) fried spring rolls and krispy kremes. i can't say it's been extremely difficult but i do miss eating those foods. i'm the type of person that likes to snack a lot and it's been hard to find something 'healthy' to snack on in and around the house. it's even worse at my parents'.
so far, i haven't needed to call anyone for support. and i don't see myself doing it in the future. i'm not that big on food. that said, i do enjoy a good meal.
anyone else wanting to join is more than welcome. After all, isn't our body the temple for the Holy Spirit? (1 corinthians 6.19)
today is day six.
so far, i've been tempted with lollies, pizza, chocolate, my own birthday cake (which by the way, i haven't and ANY) fried spring rolls and krispy kremes. i can't say it's been extremely difficult but i do miss eating those foods. i'm the type of person that likes to snack a lot and it's been hard to find something 'healthy' to snack on in and around the house. it's even worse at my parents'.
so far, i haven't needed to call anyone for support. and i don't see myself doing it in the future. i'm not that big on food. that said, i do enjoy a good meal.
anyone else wanting to join is more than welcome. After all, isn't our body the temple for the Holy Spirit? (1 corinthians 6.19)
Monday, November 19, 2007
Monday, November 05, 2007
crash
so i was in my first accident yesterday. mine was the middle car in a three car collision. I narrowly missed the first car only to be pushed into its rear by the car behind me. so much for braking on time.things i got out of it:
1. i can continue to shake even hours after the accident
2. driving behind a car whose brake lights do not work is a very bad idea. change lanes immediately even if it means you have to do a uie to make your right turn.
3. having a headache all of the next day is no fun. no fun at all. neither is a funny neck.
4. when talking to mum on the phone, never neglect to say it was a MINOR accident or you'll scare the living daylights out of her. do not neglect a concerned dad either.
5. walking into a police station is not as bad as it seems to be.
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
how funny
i had my clinical exam today and the client thought that my examiners were students and asked them if they were learning anything from me. from me!
one down, five to go...
one down, five to go...
Thursday, October 11, 2007
Sunday, September 30, 2007
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
random
this morning, stranger offered me a lift to the station.
i didn't know they still do that nowadays. she really made my day because i just missed my bus and was going to be late for clinics.
and to top everything off, she was a christian from korea!
//
WOW!!
i didn't know they still do that nowadays. she really made my day because i just missed my bus and was going to be late for clinics.
and to top everything off, she was a christian from korea!
//
WOW!!
Saturday, September 08, 2007
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