easily my favourite song/video at the moment

Oren Lavie - Her Morning Elegance

when my blood flows into the drain in the middle of the floor

Today I found myself sitting on the edge of my bed, hugging Tigger with tears streaming down my face with no apparent reason (even to myself). A few days ago, I caught myself wondering what will happen if I swallowed more than the prescribed dose of panadol.

The only reason I'm not dead right now is because I have too much to live for.

Expectations of life, I guess.

crash worthy

Do you know of the supercheap auto ad that gives you advise about how you're sitting in your car?

Well, apparently the right leg needs to rest against the door and the left against the middle bit (I don't know what it's called). I tried it while in my car this afternoon and guess what? If I had my leg against the door, my foot can't reach the pedal and with the other leg against the middle bit, it feels like I'm trying to do the splits while driving.

That advise was so great, I might actually try it while driving.

bedtime story

s.o.s.

I'm getting impatient again.

HELP!

green

Oh how I wish I could just smash everything into oblivion
when the subject of my heart's desire
is so far out of reach

music & personality

According to BBC news, I am lazy, rough, introverted, have low self esteem, but quite creative.

the music was not too loud

// All I could here all night was a highpitched ditzy voice:

"I'm not a tightarse, but..."

"Oh, look at this picture! I have it as my profile photo!"

"Are you sure I've got his CD? I thought you bought it....no, I definitely have it"

"I like this song."

"And this song."

"And this song."

All though the gig! Sigh. Some people have no courtesy. //

long night, hold tight

Take this heart,
it and all these scars

- ellington

i love people who make me laugh

// The podiatrist I work with wrote me a sick certificate today. That was because he didn't want to catch a cold. He gave me the week off. // Three guys were blocking the aisle I was walking through. At the last possible second (just before I said excuse me), they stepped back and said sorry simultaneously. // There were two boys at the grocery store that were touching everything much to the chagrin of their father. While waiting at the deli, the spinned each other around until they both fell to the ground, dizzy. //

i spent twelve hours at work today

// I've reached the heights of weariness.

I'm so tired, that I can't keep my eyes open but when I go to bed, I can't sleep.

Ten hours wasn't so bad, I survived the past couple of weeks, afterall. But twelve?

To think there's one more month of this.

And three pilates classes to teach! I am going to have rock hard abs by the end of the year. //

carry you

with my eyes i haven't seen
with my ears i haven't heard
with my lips no words speak
with my hands so transparent

once mentioned, everything appeared
the flirtatious nature, the subtle words
one point meaning another
deception

pictures of a red sky, orange clouds
polar differences of the temperature
of the heart
heavy

these wings are a burden

21.06.08