tried my wings

by saying nothing

i'm saying something else

- antiskeptic

i really should read what i'm given properly...

today, i turned up at the physiotherapy office to report in for my exam. i was there for a good half hour when the undergraduate officer told me that the exam was tomorrow.

great, i thought. all the way into the city for nothing. and i had to go through wearing mum's largerthanyourglassescliponsunnies. sheesh. i have to do it again tomorrow. i should have my own bathroom where there are no bits of shaved hair and splashes of water everywhere. then i wouldn't have this infected eye that will take six weeks to heal. at least i clean up my mess. i can't say the same for the rest of my family. sigh. what to do?

on the plus side, i have an extra day to study/catchup on what i can't remember. but i have to cook dinner which cuts down my study time in half. not that i'm complaining. anything to get out of studying but i think i really need the time.

ever wonder how something as small as finding the right guy/girl can rule your life?

a friend told me tonight that she intended to see me hooked up with someone the next time she sees me...which is in march. that got me thinking. do i get boyfriend for the sake of my friends or do i find someone that truly complements my personality and loves me for who i am? i certainly want the latter. i think part of the reason i want to be in a relationship is that all my friends are either hooking up or getting married. i seem to be the only one that is still single.

BUT there are a lot of my friends that are still single.

Ps Ken once remarked that we are beings of desire. whatever that means. he said youth want to find a life partner at their age, and that's fine, as long as it's within your boundaries.

another thing. BOUNDARIES. big word. are boundaries things people set for you or are they things you set yourself. i think it's both. i don't think i'm that malleable to other people's opinions but i think i do care what they think of me and what i do. people set the boundaries that others follow.

hmm..i don't think i'm making sense. it's late and this little girl needs her full nine hours of sleep.

i've been procrastinating again...too much time spent at the computer, me thinks. i get distracted so easily.

last night was good. i went to phanin's place for some recording. didn't expect it to be so quick and easy. i think most of the night was spent finding the sounds i wanted on his old school keyboard. should have asked titus to come along. i think he would have been able to give me some pointers. but i did learn from what i did. phanin was most helpful...if not the most articulated person. one of these days, i should go early to church & experiment with the sounds on the korg. can't wait till gravitate starts again.

of books and lecturenotes

i hate studying.

i hate how academic everything has to be to get your basic degree.

i hate having to remember things in so much detail that you only have to vaguely know in your line of work.

i hate that we physios have to study harder than the meds.

but i'm glad that i won't ever have to work night shifts. or weekends...except if i decide to go into private practice.

comments:

lonewalker on 19 january 2005 at 14.11
Working nights doing anything is not fun. Unless you are nocturnel

there is no such thing as an overnight success

love

what is love?

does it mean that if i have a relationship with a guy show i am loved?

does it mean that if i get all the attention, i am loved?

day three post shop

isn't it weird how fast one can go back to the normal routine after a life-changing experience?

it is for me, knowing that there's something different yet i'm still doing the same things i've been doing before that experience. it's like a pebble thrown into a calm lake. it ripples but those ripples don't stay long and the lake returns to its normal state of calmness. but the bottom is changed forever by that little pebble. i kinda feel like that.

shop changed my perspective on God. He's always there for me whether i feel it or not and He's always working in my life, in control of all situations whether i see it or not. more than likely, i don't see it until way after.

ronald mcdonald shoes

this is what happens if you put a couple of bored young adults on a beach without any bathers and a desire not to get their clothes wet.

outreach on the beach was great. it gave us a time to get to know the other team members & make new contacts with people on the beach. like the time simon & owen struck up a conversation of how cool wetsuits are with some surfers.

they managed to chase them away.