i missed playing at gravitate. not that i haven't played in a long time but i think that i've been doing it for so long that missing a week...you get what i mean, not that i don't enjoy playing in the focus band ...just different people, different feel, i guess.

mum and i have been talking quite a bit about this year & where i'm heading. i'm still struggling with studies and doing my quiet time. mum thinks that this is the year where i'm being challenged not only academically but spiritually as well. i think i agree. most of the time, i find it so difficult to read the bible, or pray for that matter.

last month, surge had a series with mark sayers. i went to the one about why people are more prone to leaving the faith at certain ages. we live in an agnostic society where every need is provided for and no room for God. everything is about pleasing the self now and turnover is high. this liquidity means no commitments to things of the long term. those who step away are usually at crossroads, like transitions between highschool & uni, uni & work, work & retirement, etc.

i think i'm at a crossroad in my life at the moment. i'm experiencing the working life (although i'm still learning & have a year to go) and managing my time between study and non-study activities are tough. i've never been great at managing my own time but i'm starting to learn.

i think.