like freedom in spring

the blog squad (aka blog buddies aka blog chums aka whatevernamechangeyouguyscomeupwith) met up without me last night. there's this empty and hollow feeling left inside of me (this is around the time we usually meet up). sigh.

haha. i'm kidding. no hard feelings guys. but i do miss meeting up and listening to mikey make a fool out of himself around us. but that's our mikey. he semi-harrassed me over who i 'gave up on'. if only he knew, eh ange?

it is good that i'm not thinking of him twentyfourseven. but i love the feeling of not being able to sleep at night because of him (i really can't afford sleepless nights). i love how he makes me smile even when he's not around. i love how he brightens up my day without even trying. i still really like him and it's really hard for me to give it all up to God and not take matters into my own hands. after all, it's all in His timing.

i'm trying to get to know him more before i commit to anything. i think even if he did ask me out now, i'll try to take it slow, get to know him more before committing to anything. but these are just words, aren't they? who knows what i'll do if he ACTUALLY asked me out. i pray that God would give me to strength and courage to exercise my self control and avoid temptation.

working so far...