do you know the feeling of stepping outside after a weekend full of fun and powerpacked messages from your senior pastor, and knowing that your world hasn't changed but you have?
one of the things pastor ken talked about was encouragement and authenticity. there's not enough encouragement in the world and we pursue things that are superficial and irrelevant to our walk. he gave an example of a girl noticing a boy. she didn't noticed him for his good looks or his charm, but his passion and desire to serve his Lord with all his being.
i want to be noticed like that. i don't want people to take note of what i wear or how i look. i want people to see past what i'm doing (or trying to do) and see God's character in me. i don't want relationships that are sailing through the seas of superficiality. i want relationships that are doused and submerged in the depths of transparency and trust.
yesterday, there was a moment when i felt incredibly lonely. as i walked through the doors of the stairwell into the hallway of the second floor, i came across third year students sitting on the carpeted floor with their legs stretched out in front of them. as i stepped over them, the didn't even try to move their legs out of the way, causing me to tiptoe into the small crevices between their tangled legs. all they gave me were glances to see who it was that walked up to and past them. their eyes flickered towards at me and just as quickly, turned back to their conversations. i sat down and tried to look cool, as if i don't need anyone to talk to or friends, for that matter. but deep down, i wanted someone to ask me how my day was, someone who would go out of their way to make me feel part of their little group.
in retrospect, i can see that what i felt could easily have been someone else, multiplied a hundred times. it could be a person i sit next to on the train, someone i rush past on the way to the bus, someone standing next to me in the library.
pastor ken is right. encouragement is needed in the world.
who else to give it to them if not a follower of Christ?
3 comments:
Thats exactly right Deb! I can't believe those snobby third year students didn't even move their legs! Thats terrible! But its so wonderful that even at the end of it you are still thinking of OTHER people. Good on ya girl ;) God loves you...and when I get back, we'll go down to that school and kick those peoples butts! hehe...
yo deb!!
yea, man, its scary how similar everybody can feel, but yet go on living ignorant live huh?
i dont think anybody hasnt not felt in that sitch! well anyways, just poppn in!
well, i just got the 'you cant handle the tooth' vol.1, cos they claimed they didnt have 'the nail' vol.2 (bet they did)
wellll, listening to hawk nelson 'Things we go through'...i like...
okie dokies, God bless ya!
->>im a fan! ehehe, methinks you rock!
hey there,
you write sweetly well.
I wouldn't pay too much attention to 3yrs. Most people are self-absorbed in their own little worlds. That's just life y'know. You find them everywhere= esp in churches and youth groups. Is it shitty? Yes but that's generally how people are conditioned. They want to stick with their friends and talk to them- bugger the strangers. Everyone feels like an outcast at some point in their lives. the feeling will pass. Just dun worry abt it so much.
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