grace

sometimes listening to another share about their relationship with God during on of the devotion sessions before gravitate, i get struck down with with bouts of jelousy. everyone else's walk is so much better than mine. but the grass is always greener on the other side, isn't it?

there are lots of stuff that i know in my head but have never really lived it or felt it. one of which is God's grace. 'my grace is sufficient for you' (NIV)/'my gracious favour is all you need' (NLT) [2 cor 12.9] has always been just a phrase from the Bible. never really meant anything to me until two weeks ago.

it was the last week of my clinical placement and my supervisors previously told us that they mark our continuous clinical assessment (CCA) marks in the last two to three weeks of the six week placement. when i got my feedback at the end of week five, i was more than a little worried but i figured that i could get my marks up to the passing level by the end of the last week.

THEN i was sick for half of monday and all of tuesday so there was no showing my stuff then. on top of that, i had a clinical exam on the wednesday and the final feedback was on thursday! absolutely no way i could do enough to bump my marks up. based on my descriptions, my friends thought i aced the exam. i wasn't so sure.

i was neglecting my relationship with God for about two weeks prior and knowing i had no right to ask Him and expect Him to come to my rescue, i did. i failed really badly last year due to a mixture of an overly strict supervisor who marked me at a graduate level and not as a third year and a lack of time spent studying on my part. i really didn't want to fail again and have physiotherapy closed off as a career path.

it was then that i truly knew what Godgiven grace was. i more than passed the clinical component of neurological physiotherapy. it's so easy to just attribute this to the supervisors being 'nice' because i was sick or me, being the genious that i am, scraped through the end all by myself.

it was definitely not me, i can tell you that. definitely an intervention by a higher power, the big guy upstairs.