she stared up at the wall in front of her. the height is endless. the situation she was in was horrible. what made me jump into this hole, she asked. i couldn't have been that stupid to do that it myself. the prospects of living in there wasn't good. pretty soon, she'll die of not just thirst and hunger but loneliness. the only way out was to climb the impossible wall in front of her.
after a few moments of indecision, she made her first foothold and dug her foot in it. slowly she made her way up and out of the pit. there were moments where she stopped and wanted to give up but the climb down was just as hard as the climb up to where she was.
suddenly fear gripped her. what if she were to fall? who would catch her; especially from that height. it was hours before she was able to summon enough courage to take the next step up the wall. along the way, there were branches to hold on to to rest, pools of water to quench her thirst, but she still moves on.
she is still climbing that wall today. her reserves are nearly finished but she can see the speck of light in the distance; smaller than the end of a needle.
as she climbs, she wonders what that light holds for her.
1 comment:
i like this one.
dearest deb deb. know that He never leaves you nor forsakes you (see Josh 1). Don't compare yourselves to what it seems other people have, don't limit yourself to the expectations of others, and don't ever sell yourself short because what you want what you think is "right".
God doesn't call people to be the same, to walk the same path in life. You're completely different. Yes, it might be physically lonely, and God knows this. He said it himself "it is not good for man to be alone" (see gen 2). But by the same token You are not alone.
Yes, most of the time you can't say what you really want to, because most of the time you don't actually know what is making you hurt, you don't know what you want and the face that you put out is just a mask, because you're not sure that the real skin could survive the harshness of this world.
Most of what You want is not actually what you want but what you think could fill the hole, what feels like it could be good.
But don't forget what happened to the israelites when Joshua and the elders forgot to ask Gods counsel (see josh 9). Because of their desicions, they could never fully experience the full culmination of Gods promise land.
Love you lots my mashed up deb.
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