i want to spend my solitude with you

I realise that I've been quite polar with my mood lately. Moreso that end that no one wants to be in. The good one last albeit a few minutes, but they're there. At least they're there. There are things I am glad about, and there are things that could be a whole lot better. I find myself having envious, angry and even depressive thoughts of the late. Most of all I wonder.

I wonder what makes me do the things I do and the tank that is my head.

I wonder a lot of whatifs and maybes.

My thoughts wander like the stray leaf on a windy day, not able to anchor and is subject to the desires of nature. I wonder where I'm going to land before the wind picks me up again.

And I wonder how I came about so much junk. Try as I may to clear them out, they seem to be continually growing.

Thank you for bearing with me. Thank you for still having hope. Thank you for all the time I rage but you still are close.

Love you lots.

p.s. Thanks for the reminder.